We are sitting around watching MSNBC this morning when my husband says, “Those kids sitting around that table, yesterday; that was just magical!”Read More
In ten minutes, wow. At 4am on February 5th, exactly one month away from my estranged wifes birthday. Cant say I feel much different than a few years ago. Being by myself, and traveling through a life shift every two years seems to be a spiritual cycle for me. From Queens NY, to North Carolina, To Maryland, back to New York, to Australia, Back to New York.Read More
THINGS I KNOW are things I’ve been told or things I pieced together and repeated out loud enough times that I can no longer discern fact from imagination.
My parents met and married in Hawaii. She wore a baby yellow shift dress, though, I didn’t see it until three decades later so maybe it was just yellowed. Did the sleeves bell? Did the hem curve?
I’ve been through more break ups than I can count. My first break up happened before my first kiss. I left Jesus one Sunday morning, as his blood and body lay in front of me, an offering I denied in tears of guilt.Read More
For someone who’s supposed to be good with words, I use a lot of emojis, or emoji if you’re the kind of person who says “stadia” instead of “stadiums.” There are two in particular that I use every day, all day long.Read More
She sends pictures of him posed in doorways,
red pants and full lips and
the scarves that men wear in far off places.
He threw away all his birthday cards. I remember when he told me that. We were sitting in his room, which was absolutely pristine. He had only a small desk and a twin Ikea bed that used fall in when we tried to have sex on it. We'd always have to switch to the floor after a few minutes (and he would insist on laying his sleeping bag under us before we continued).Read More
2019 is an El Niño year. “Not the year for the Cali road trip,” he said. Mudslides, road closures. Perhaps another year. Where can we drive? How far can you drive in a week?Read More
I grew up in a shaded
tree, across a wide horizon,
catching baby birds from nests,
knowing the comfort silence
Even by the standards of practiced swingers or the youngest, most hot to jump newlyweds, it was an affair of flamboyant sensualism.Read More