Sometimes apologies aren't enough. Because an apology doesn't always acknowledge the pain we've put someone through, it just acknowledges our wrongdoing.
I have always had a hard time letting people go. The memories left behind can be very bittersweet, but sometimes people leave and you can't make them stay. It's always a hard pill to swallow, but sometimes people have to leave for their own good. Sometimes it's not about you but them.
I recently let go of an old friend that just started bringing out nothing but negativity and hostility in me when I wanted peace and positive vibes. Sometimes the people of your past are meant to be a part of your past and not your future because you're incompatible and have grown apart.
Just let them go.
Regardless of the situation or who's letting go of whom just let them go. Chasing after someone who doesn't want to be a part of your life can't really do anything but further harm their perception of you. Convincing them that you really are bad for their life.
So just breathe. Cry it out if you have to, listen to music, go find that book that always puts you in a happy place, listen to that comedian, watch that movie or show, take a walk, or whatever you have to do to make yourself feel good again.
If someone is meant to remain in your life: they'll stay. You can't force anyone to remain there against their will, and why would you want to?
Go to the places and people that love you. Sure, you may miss them and wonder what happened but remember to keep moving forward. Make your dreams realities. Maybe if you're lucky you'll get another chance. Maybe not. Just be yourself and become your own best friend. Love yourself. After all, you're the one you have to spend your life with.
Linda M. Crate's works have appeared in numerous magazines and anthologies both online and in print. She is the author of three chapbooks, the Magic Series, and the forthcoming fantasy novel "Phoenix Tears". You can find Linda here: https://www.facebook.com/Linda-M-Crate-129813357119547/.